Types of Relationships one may enter in their lives

There has been a rise about the topic of Twin flames. The other half of our souls that last split from us as we separated from source to experience the illusion or "Maya" of the material world. They are the intensely passionate relationship we all long for. Our Soul mates are those split from us earlier and that are part of our soul groups. Karmic relationships are those people we are drawn to because we are said to have known them in a past life. So when do we meet each and why?

Karmic Relationships

These are the relationships that are marked by an overwhelming attraction. But these connections are often not easy. Since there is karma to be balanced or pay off, the relationship is usually marked by chaos, and a frightening consuming feeling that doesn't feel quite safe. They sometimes give off a similar vibe to that of twin flame relationships. But the difference is that twin flames run because they cannot handle the idea of caring for another person more than they could care about themselves. You hurt or get hurt in a karmic relationships unless the karma is good. It is as if you have an overwhelming attraction to the other but you have little to no admiration or respect for the other person. The attraction is primal and something that should be avoided.

This is why people should listen to their intuition. If you have a primal urge to merge with the other but find yourself loathing her or his personality, chances are that it is karmic. Karmic relationships also don't last long unless the karma takes long to balance.

However, if the concept of karma doesn't resonate with you, there is a simple explanation to a relationship that feels this way. If you are at a low vibratory rate, you do a job that you hate, you act in ways that are not parallel to your personal truth, and if you have trouble expressing your emotions and admitting the truth to yourself and others, you will attract people that will lead you to continue on that path. They will provoke out of you negative emotions. Remember that the subconscious mind attracts situations that make you aware of suppressed emotions and past traumas. You may even have had a soul contract with this person to provoke you into going in the direction that you are supposed to. Maybe this person came into your life and made you feel so bad about yourself that you were forced to love yourself unconditionally as a result.

Soulmate Relationships

These relationships are not hard to maintain or enter. When you meet a soul mate, you'll feel an over-consuming love for the other. The intensity is less when compared to a twin flame and/or karmic relationship and this relationship is here to guide you to continue in the direction of what your life path is. In other words, these people will influence you to go in the direction of whatever it is that you came here to do. What you came here to do is whatever it is that resonates with you and provides food for your emotional body. It's what feels emotionally right.

Most of the times, a soul mate relationships is easy. You both have spiraled out of the same branch of souls so there is a level of comfort between the both of you. You both know each other and have decided to experience each other  in the physical realm as lovers. Sometimes soulmate relationships can be between friends, family members and even pets and owners but that shall be discussed another time.

However, if a twin flame is not present in the physical realm, depending on how much a soul mate must push you to realize your own essence and follow through with your sole purpose upon incarnating in this three dimensional world, this relationship could also be tough.

Whether, it's easy or tough, these relationships have one of the most influence on a person's life.

Twin Flame Relationships

This is the last soul you split up from in the repetitive process of splitting from source. Coming face to face with your twin flame could be intense and you may be intensely attracted to them explained by the concept known as "love at first sight."

The feeling of familiarity would be all too consuming. The meeting would be marked by syncronicities. You may have deja vus or at least the feeling that where you are at the moment is right, familiar and was felt before. You would just know when you meet them. It would be a mystical experience.

Your perceptions of all things will be altered and a sudden burst of luck or situations and things marked by high vibrations will fall into your sight. You two were brought together for a purpose. Whether that purpose was to merge and ascend after this lifetime or to serve humanity, you will know.

One may run because of the sheer intensity of the relationship. But they would run from the relationship because they know that once they've experienced the sudden high of the drug, there is no going back.

When the merging of two twin souls take place, telepathy or sexual intercourse in astral realms may take place in the form of dreams. You can be transformed and perhaps even reach a higher state of consciousness.

But before this process takes place, the 'false self' or the ego must be wiped away or at least filtered. Any attributes that don't serve you, you will have to clear away or your twin flame will force you to do so. This purging process is not easy and this is usually what makes people run or even dislike their twin flame at earlier stages.

A twin flame is often very hard to find. Most people are not ready and the idea of a powerful union can be romantic, but with love comes pain. Separation is often very painful and any struggles between the twins bring upon immense pain. If they are placed in similar situations as Cleopatra and Marc Anthony, it could lead to the death and destruction of both as love is just a destructive force as it is a transformative one.

Signs and Symptoms include:

• Purging of the self off of anything that doesn't serve
• A sense of "deja vu" upon meeting
• Love at first sight
• Syncronicities such as names, scars, turning points in lives, and uncanny coincidences that are unlikely to occur otherwise
• Unusual meeting
• Dreams, and instances of telepathy (like him calling you when you just thought of why he doesn't call you)
• The time you two spend together is almost mystical in nature (It feels like you are in a dream)
• A sudden burst of luck
• You may have had dreams of him upon meeting him or you continuously dream of him afterwards and may have even had sexual intercourse with him in your dream
• You often see 11:11 everywhere 
• You immensely care for the other and it scares you

This meditation can help you attract a soul mate, or twin flame. Try it(if you'd like) and comment below about your experiences. 

 

Why do we ALWAYS fall for the wrong person?

Nice little comic regarding a story you all know very well!

Why do we attract the people we do into our lives? Why do we produce an interest in one person and not the other? Why does the person that seem like my complete polar opposite actually intrigue me romantically and sexually?

That is what the most damaged ones, romantically speaking or otherwise have pondered upon. Some of us have daddy/mommy complexes. Others attract people that mirror their issues and when coming in face with these insecurities, they clash with their significant other. Others are in love with potentials and some just settle because of their insecurities. All these types give rise to unhappy relationships, miserable times, and just more damage to the self in particular.

Let's start with those of us that have mommy/daddy issues. As children, most of us have some sort of attachment to the opposite sex parent; even more so than the same-sex parent. It's our very first idea of love. A woman's first love is her father and a man's first love is his mother. Our home is our idea of what love is. So if the woman's father was an absent, "macho," unaffectionate breadwinner who she always had to work hard getting validation from, that's exactly what she will fall for when she grows older. If the man had a 'damaged' mother who consumed drugs, relied on men that eventually ended up hurting her, he will pursue a similar archetype. By 'saving' his lover, he subconsciously saves his mother and thus dissolves his childhood problems.

Others are instantly drawn to those that mirror their own hidden issues. If I had a bad life, chances are I won't be attracted to innocence and kindness. I may not even understand it. I'll be attracted to someone just as damaged so we could build walls protecting each other from the same cruel world that formerly hurt us both. I'd be the many Bonnies searching hopelessly for her Clyde. A happy, social man with a typical high-paying nine to five job just won't get it. This seems to be especially be true for women. People ask why women are attracted to jerks. It's because they want the illusion of protection and only a damaged soul will get it. Fixing a man who's suffered will band aid our own cuts and bruises especially a powerful man that makes us feel like he could fight the rest of the world for us.

What most people don't understand is that we will all get what we think we need. If you need validation and want attention, but is afraid of emotional intimacy because your shadow self has gotten burnt while seeking it, you will get a man/woman that is distant, cold, doesn't make you promises, and nothing goes anywhere with this person. Eventually you'll reach a point where you can't get out but you can't get in either. You'll feel stuck and you would want out but you'd be too attached.

If you want to bring the law of attraction into this, well our bodies are like dirty mirrors. The light we put forward, is exactly what we get in return. So essentially, our negative thoughts, our shadow sides, our resistance will project forward and manifest into a personification of what we may or may not want consciously.

But how do we change our patterns? Awareness is the answer. What you have to do first is notice your patterns. Notice the type of men or women you attract. Think of a time of a man/woman you would consciously choose to be with but for some reason the spark just wasn't there. Ask yourself why? Let's say you're in a relationship with a man/woman that you don't want to be with but there's an attachment you can't let go. Well give it some time. Notice how she or he triggers you. Let that be a chance for you to do shadow work or just letting your emotions run free and being in a perfect state of allowance. Then once you've decided you want to leave the relationships for good, do it. Communicate with your significant other about your feelings and break free.

After leaving the relationship, cry whenever you need to or if you would rather break something, do it. Go to the gym and run as fast as you can. Use your elliptical arm handles as if you're punching his/her face if you have to. No, he/she doesn't actually deserve to be punched(or maybe they do) but you yourself need to first validate the anger you feel. Then run away from all of the people that made you feel this feeling in your childhood. Feel the power. Feel as if you finally have control over your life. Set yourself free.

What is the point of this? You can't go from despair to instant happiness. Happiness is out of reach vibrationally from despair. So releasing your despair in the form of anger is step one.

Once you've done that, make a to-do list. Make a list of the type of movies you want to watch or a list of the books you want to read. Make a list of the things you want to try and do it. If you have a demanding job, at least watch a movie a day from the movie list. Do whatever you can do to receive joy. Find your place and form your identity. Meet new people. Meet people with common interests. Hang out with that old friend from high school that made you roll on the floor laughing.

Then keep a synchronicity journal. Write down all of the characteristics of the man/woman you want. Write all of it and don't feel bad for wanting a certain trait. The purpose of your life is joy, and it's only you who'll bring you this. Imagine the feeling of being loved by this type of person. Now ask yourself, do you think you're worthy of such a person. If you feel like the answer is no, then well you shouldn't even start looking. Work to love yourself and accept all of you first. Remember, depending on what you believe, either god put you in this body or you chose it. Either god gave you all of these traits and made you 'in his image' or you chose it upon reincarnating. All of this occurred for a reason. Either God knows this reason or your higher self does.

If before finding 'the one,' you still want to achieve your goals, then do it. But remember if you don't love yourself first, your goals and the perfect mate will forever stay unreachable. Tune into the frequency of self-love, and you'll get more in return. Tune into the frequency of self-loathe, you'll only get potentials; what you could be, who you could be with, and the goals you could achieve.

If you don't want to read this article and you'd much rather listen, then be my guest!

Law of Attraction, Real or ludicrous?

So are Abraham Hicks teachings real? Or is it all a lie in order to promote their books and create an income? Is the law of attraction real?

At the base level, everything is energy. Atoms are 90 percent empty and particles exist only when we perceive them. Einstein’s theory of relativity states that time and space are relative to the observer. So according to that theory, is it too far stretched to believe that our surroundings exist because that’s exactly what we expect to find?

Particles are small and they come in and out of existence all the time but where do they go? Other dimensions or planes of reality? Do they come into existence because we expect them to? If they do, maybe if we could somehow tune into the formula that would cause larger things to manifest into our existence, we could afford higher hopes.

But why isn’t it as easy as it seems? That’s because the moment we entered the physical world, everything spiritual has been taken out of the picture and we have been conditioned to live in this realm. We’ve been robbed off of our creative expression and freedom. We’ve been disciplined and been told on a regular basis that we are lower beings, that we must listen to those in charge, those older and those more powerful and furthermore that we have no control over our own realities. We’ve been taught that if we want any control over our realities, we must prove ourselves and that’s exactly what we fear the most.

Look around you, almost everyone has the core belief that they are worthless. If I don’t have this, I’m worthless. Reach a level higher, I still want this and if I don’t get it, I’m worthless. We are always struggling. Everyone is taught to believe this and believes it to varying levels.

Like a radio, our brains are transmitters and a receiver of frequency. Our brains emit frequencies just like a radio transmitter. When a radio emits a frequency, it passes all matters and it’s something even scientists cannot explain. This is because at a quantum physics level, frequency is the smallest known particle on earth.

Therefore, when the human brain emits frequencies, it’s picked up by other brains and other physical matter. That’s why a mother can sense when her child is in trouble or your bestfriend calls you right after you think of her. It’s telepathy at a lower degree to which we think are meaningful coincidences.

And if you don’t believe in ‘ludicrous nonsense’ like telepathy, there isn’t much I can do to convince you except for the fact that Nostradamus predicted that one day through the revolution of science, we will be able to communicate telepathically and much of his predictions already came true but that’s a topic for another time.

So, if your core beliefs are things like, “I am powerful,” “I am beautiful,” and “I am confident,” you will automatically expect these things to reflect and manifest in your reality. And people and the circumstances you attract will further make you believe that you really are all of these things.

But things are usually not so simple because almost everything we’ve been through has conditioned us to act a certain way and formed core beliefs which are often not so easy to get rid of. Our subconscious mind is what often does the manifesting and often our traumas are what conditions it to expect negativity. Every time, we go through a negative experience, our conscious mind copes with it by filtering the negative aspects into the subconscious. That’s our shadow. Our shadow is what projects onto our surroundings all the time and that’s what creates every negative experience even if our conscious thoughts aren’t particularly negative. It’s important to clear up the shadow. There are videos on youtube dedicated to this subject as well as an article within reach on this very site about the topic!

So how might this work? Just like what the wave-particle experiment demonstrates, the particle has the potential to exist as a wave and a particle at the same time. That’s how our lives work, our future exists as potentials. And according to the relativity theory, we will get what we expect. And our subconscious mind is programmed to expect what we formerly experienced since it doesn’t understand time and space. So it is ultimately stuck in every detail of the traumatic events that we have gone through.

The realm of possibilities increase as we go higher up the dimensions until the interconnectedness increases to such an amount that everything is one and all that exists is every possibility that you can ever think of. Let me use an example. People who lucid dream or astral travel report that when they tune into the astral level of reality, it’s not much different from the physical world except it’s not as ‘fixed’ as the physical world. It’s more of a vibrational world that looks as if it can be changed any moment. Which means that the potentials of a glass in the astral world has more potentials to be other things.

Just like the emerald tablets used by alchemists used to say “as above, so below.” Also, in lucid dreams people report to get and create anything they could possibly want. So if you want to believe that the astral realm is as real as ours, then it’s safe to conclude that the potentials increase as we go higher up the realms. So programming ourselves for bliss up there, in the realm of thoughts and dreams so we could receive it down here isn’t such a bad idea.

Dreaming is also said to demonstrate the thoughts, memories, and fears. So weather, you believe you are entering a higher realm which is a faster projection of our inner battles or not, our dreams can still tell us a lot about ourselves.

However, I want to give two links to people who buy into this and want to change their inner-self, thought patterns and rewire their minds. These are two softwares. One is solely for text subliminals and the other is for visual ones. They're both free. (I've been using it for months and I've noticed changes, gradually but it's working)

Subliminal advertising was banned ever since slogans of “Drink Coca-Cola” and “Eat popcorn” were flashed throughout a movie too fast for conscious perception. As a result, slaves of popcorn had risen 18.1 percent and coke by 57.7 percent in 1957.

Let’s experiment for ourselves. Let’s see if we see changes in our lives. Let’s try this and comment below after a month or two!

Text:

http://subliminal-blaster.en.softonic.com/

Images:

http://subliminal-images.software.informer.com/1.0/

Forgiveness

As a child, none of us knew what hatred is and we don't know what pain feels like. If someone takes something from us, we forgive and forget within minutes. We were truly the embodiment of innocence.

As we are older now, we are critical of others, envious, certain personality types trigger negative thoughts and emotions and overall we have become bitter beings. People have hurt us in the form of abusive and/or neglectful parenthood, bad relationships, dying friendships, family disputes, bullying and even molestation and rape. Forgiving the perpetrators seem almost impossible to do.  It's like hitting a brick wall. It just won't happen. They've taken a part of us that is so precious. They took fragments of our souls.

I am no different. I never like my cousin's picture. At the extreme, I watch the man that touched me at age 11 being thrown into hell.

This page isn't going to be about forgiving people that have done too much damage. This page is only going to be about forgiving the cousin or the elementary friend that bruised our egos. Forgiveness is a hard process and baby steps is necessary on order to take on the harder challenges. I may never be able to forgive that man as victims of molestation may never be able to theirs but little is surely better than nothing.

This is about people we didn't get along with. Let's begin with my story. I was a sheltered girl, daughter to a religious father who wasn't allowed to hang out with the opposite sex or even girls of different faiths and cultures. I had grown up in the west but felt as if I belonged nowhere. I hadn't even ordered at a fast food restaurant properly at the age of 17 and people did scare me. I went to visit my aunt and my older cousin in LA during the summer. Instantly this Californian chick with tattoos who was completely raised differently made me uncomfortable especially being deeply religious at that age (I'm an appostate now). She treated me as if I wasn't good enough, paid little attention to me, and often said bitchy little things that would cause me to cry in private. This was supposed to be the older sister I never had, my other half, someone I could depend on throughout my life as a guide. My dreams shattered.

I eventually returned to Canada and I developed this personification of my cousin and even other members of my extended family(I had other reasons) as classist, stuck up, shallow and uncultured. Was this a form of me being over critical? Yes, it is. What I'm doing is projecting forth anger because I assumed that I have gotten rejected for my own insecurities. While she may not have liked me much because I was religious, a little too shy and perhaps 'uncool' by Western standards (due to my carefully sheltered childhood), her behaviour may have nothing to do with me.

Was she a good person for treating me that way? Of course not, but the reason why we weren't close could be entirely different. She may have felt depressed over her ended relationship, fueds with friends and well her wrong choices when it came to her education. Maybe, she wasn't entirely able let me in her life especially while dealing with those internal conflicts.

Another reason we could have clashed was the fact that the way we were raised was completely different. While I was painfully sheltered and yet was instilled some cultural values, she was baby sat all her life. She had rebellious friends in high school, teachers that lusted after her (mentioned in conversation) and she wasn't familiar with attitude exuding excess kindness like I was due to living in Toronto, one of the best cities in one of the most peaceful countries in the world. My point is she had to be tough and prove herself initially so a fragile shy damsel in distress like myself who might even judge her for her wild life style wasn't much of her liking.

Maybe if that justification of the clash between the older sister I never had doesn't sound legitimate,  then perhaps maybe I triggered an aspect of her shadow self she wanted nicely hidden? Maybe a girl who prayed had belittled her at some point of her life. Maybe a demure girl had stolen her boyfriend or friend? The possibilities are endless. What matters is initially she's not an evil person. We just didn't get along. Now it's up to me to neutralize the way I would feel about a person that reminds me of her or of traits that I may think is hers.

What you should do is imagine a picnic table late at night and two pathways ahead. You and her/him are sitting on the picnic table. Then you tell the other person your feelings towards them. You can end it with them apologizing and then telling them: "It was nice to meet you, but we just didn't click. I hope you have a good life but we must simply go our own paths." Then walk on different paths. And that's it.

There are countless possibilities of the reason why we didn't get along with a specific person or why they didn't like us. There are subconscious reasons, there are difficult times they might be going through, wrong time for you two to be together and maybe plain ignorance. Remember we are all wounded beings. It's just that some are more than others and less aware about it. Don't expect too much and put people on a pedestal just to chain them to the depths of hell afterwards. See them for what they really are and release the negative energy that is holding you back from being whole,  in harmony with those around you, and in a state of allowance. Once you're in a state of resistance like exuding hatred, your reality is likely to mirror these exact emotions even if in some cases the emotions might not be appropriate.

Changing Core Beliefs

Regardless of anything, most of us have negative core beliefs that we're not even slightly aware of. Every time you get anxious working in front of people, every time you think that a certain type of person has certain biases or thinks negative thoughts about you, it is an indication that you have rooted core beliefs.

Let me use my example. I used to have social anxiety and to an extent, I still do. I often act as if or feel like a piece of meat amidst starving hungry dogs that are doing whatever it possibly takes to bite me. This reaction comes from my past of being bullied, molested, and having a chaotic relationship with my Father.

My core belief is that I'm the worst of all creatures and that somehow everyone can see right through me and all my flaws are emphasized somehow for the whole world to see and comment on. That is how I act and I often have people asking me whether I'm okay. Because I don't look okay, regardless of how much I try and hide it, people sense my vulnerability in certain situations. It took a lot of studying about the shadow self to realize that I feel this way even around close friends. Somehow always waiting to be attacked by any one of them and somehow taking jokes as a personal attack. The truth of the matter was that I needed to lighten up and allow me to be myself without acting like what I am is bad.

The truth is everyone has reasons for positive core beliefs, maybe just as much as reason for a negative core belief but the reason why our negative core beliefs are the ones that are manifested into our lives is because our conscious mind filters all that we cannot cope with into our subconscious mind. And it is the subconscious mind or the shadow self that influences what we manifest to our physical plane of existence.

Now if you're 9 years old, and your parents hit you and told you that they no longer want you, you're worthless and that they want to give you up to foster care, all of those hurtful feelings will be filtered directly to the subconscious and whether or not you manifest the proof of that exact core belief into your life, this incident will manifest into social anxiety, depression, and other factors affecting your mental health. You will treat yourself as a Salem witch being hunted down to be burnt at the stake. You will feel as if one small mistake is a call for humiliation and will forever be at your defenses even if there really is no need to be.

So how do you change these core beliefs? Other than finding peace with your inner child through shadow work, you will have to purposefully build the roots of new beliefs. This is a common belief most people already have without even realizing. "I am worthless" is a belief that has been rooted deeply within us since childhood. And if you don't want me to go so far as to claim that most people have such pitiful self-esteem that deep inside they feel worthless, then I shall claim that certainly, everyone has the core belief "I am powerless."

We've all felt powerless. When we failed a math test and when we have been told that our imaginary friend isn't real are just the root to the problems. The concept our minds formed as a result was "I am powerless." Now in our adulthood, when we cannot find a job, this is just the proof of a concept we already knew of.

To change these core beliefs, isn't going to be easy. Even affirmations and subliminal programming may not aid us. So doing this exercise will be helpful. Keep a journal and in the journal, write five core beliefs that you want to have and each and everyday add proof(the pillers) to each and every new belief.

So, let's use my example My core belief is that I'm powerless. I should cross this core belief out and write down a new one such as "I am powerful."

Why am I powerful?

Let's look at the past...

I have gotten As and Bs through out my high school years.

I did a job at age fifteen and earned a good enough income, thus proving my mom's friends who thought I was incapable of holding a job wrong.

I stopped a friend from jumping off her balcony.

I had often pulled all nighters, ending up achieving an A in my assignments.

I have wrote fiction that people have begged me to finish.

Then you should look at the present...

Then you should look at today...

Did you do anything productive today?

Also keep in mind that you should do activities that line up with your core beliefs. This is especially important if you are in fact depressed and aren't ready to confront your shadow self. Line up with people that compliment you and make you 'feel good.' Keep writing in this journal. What will happen is that according to the law of attraction, you will attract situations that will keep on proving to you that this core belief is in fact truth.

Remember, you get what you expect. But before you can expect, you have to condition yourself to expect as such. You will never be a vibrational match to winning the lottery if you're in debt and you are constantly focusing on lack. But take one step at a time, and since you won't automatically believe that you're a millionaire, you'll have to condition yourself to believe that you're meant for greater things.

Let's say you want money but a core belief that you have might be "Rich people are classist," or "Money is bad," or even "You have to stab someone else in the back in order to climb the ladder of success."

You will never have an abundance of wealth. Why? Because you believe yourself to be different to all of the above, you won't be a vibrational match to money. So unless you become 'bad,' are willing to 'stab someone else in the back,' or become 'classist,' it is mandatory for you to change those core beliefs.

So it's your job to formulate something like this.

Rich people are bad...Really?

Then you have the president of Uruguay, Jose Mujica that donates ninety percent of his money to charity and lives in a farmhouse off a dirt road where him and his wife work the land themselves.

So what does that mean?

More money is equivalent to more of an ability to help people but also have personal freedom yourself. So money doesn't always have to be a bad thing.

If you believe "Money doesn't grow on trees."

Well get a job.

Then leave a fraction of the pay check to spend on something you want and another fraction, you save in a saving's account. When you feel always secure when it comes to money, that's when it will start accumulating. Also keep a ten or twenty dollar bill with you at all time even if you just want to look at it to give you the illusion of security. But at least it conditions your mind to believe that you will have money no matter what and will forever be financially secure.

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Soul Loss (How to know if you're suffering from 'Soul Loss')

You may ask, how do some people know whether they are suffering from 'Soul loss' and how far they have to go to retrieve their fragmented self. Being more of a shamanic concept, it is an issue that most people of our time need healing from.

I shall give you a glimpse of my life to get a little more personal. I have been through my worst share of pain. I will say it right away that I am sure there have been tons of people that have been through much worse today and through out the ages, but did I go through instances where I did lose aspects of my being? I have, like to some degree all of you that are reading this today.

I have been through a time when my Father's memories were so hollow that he didn't remain to be more than a concept. Even though I did lose him not too long ago at the age of fifteen(I am nineteen writing this). I shall give myself credit for having a wonderful talent which I will call dissociation. It was my mind's way of coping with the painful memories I wasn't yet ready to face.

I would spend time, working hard attaining good grades, finding knowledge in the internet and far more than most kids my age, daydreaming and building a world of my own. Social situations would often scare me and in groups, I would feel inferior to everyone present. I would feel an odd disconnection to even my friends and family members. But in my own world, I'd make myself out to be the idealistic version of myself. I'd immediately switch out of a foul mood. And in order to make myself feel better, I'd tell myself all the exaggerations there is. And perhaps much of it was excessive pride that would fade away in a few minutes. But I would cover up my feelings with a bunch of new ones very well.

"I probably will end up like this(insert something nice) because I am good at this or I did this already" so "this shall be a success." I was always waiting for something, chasing after something that in my mind made me feel like could bring me happiness. I avoided the sadness and chased after the opposite. I was climbing the ladder but was never able to reach the top. Social Anxiety, sadness, insecurities were everything that was covered up. I was in a dream like state and I could certainly say that I had existential depression. I felt like there was no purpose on living and even if I get something I want, that happiness is not everlasting. But I can't look the other direction either and face my demons either. It's like being a ghost where letting go of your earthly form is just as tough as entering the realm you're supposed to break free to.

Many are in this zombie state. You're just monotone beings that don't know where to look. We're lost souls. I hit eighteen and this was when I finally started going to university. It was a new life and I had more the freedom that I ever did in my life. As a sheltered girl growing up, this was the ideal state to be in. That was what I always wanted. In some ways, I should have been happy. A part of me loved this freedom. I even overindulged in it. But there was a part of me that still felt lost; still felt empty.

Then watching spiritual teachers like Teal Swan, I've learned that self-awareness was the answer. So every time I'd have any negative emotion, I'll think of the last time I've felt this way and the first time I felt this way. I'd notice my patterns and put myself in difficult situations such as this. If I felt like going a step further, I'd imagine my current self helping my inner child self during the very first time she ever felt this way. I'd ask myself why I don't speak up in certain situations, and ask "What would happen if I had..."

Since then, I've realized that I've learned to connect to people at levels I never was able to before, I'm much more honest with people regarding my feelings, and I'm able to let go and have fun once in a while. I can express myself in levels I wasn't able to before.

Once you've been doing this for a long time, you'll be flooded with even more memories and certain aspects of memory lane won't seem vague anymore. Once they do come, there will be instances of intense depression and suicidal thoughts taking place. But I guarantee you that this process is important and will be the first step to what the Buddhists call nirvana. A state where your mind is in a complete state of peace.

You should do this immediately if you go between states of excessive pride and feeling extremely insecure. If you feel as if you are never fulfilled, you get anxiety, you're too indulgent(food, sex, drugs, material goods), or you're too dependent on someone else for your emotional needs, you're suffering from 'soul loss.'

These videos would aid you in this process.

Soul Retrieval and Inner Child Work

Soul retrieval, inner child work or shadow work are all practices people should participate in their lives. I decided to start off with this topic because I genuinely feel as if people go through life hating themselves and those around them. I truly seek to change this. Hatred, envy, self-doubt and competition is going to create more hatred, envy, self-doubt and competition. If you want to stop the drama, you need to burn away the triggers. We live in a material world where each and everyone of us has to work hard to be the ideal version of ourselves. We work to be the ideal that society wants us to be. But with each and every struggle, we lose a part of ourselves that we should have cherished, otherwise.

Ever wondered why he reacts insecurely when you don't message, or she feels angry when you hang with the boys for a while? The answer is childhood trauma. You may be thinking why victimize ourselves when there are starving children in Africa, or children in Syria are being killed? Well because the only way you can help anyone to a point where it doesn't come from a state of lack but a true motivation to help someone else is self-acceptance.The only way to becoming a good person is self-love. That is it. You won't become a bitter old lady if you love yourself. You'll be that nice old lady that still has a spark of attractiveness left. That kind soul of yours will project itself in your outer appearance.

Gorgeous woman

How much truth is there to this concept, I don't know but since this resonates with me, I will teach it. When we are are born, we come directly from source. Therefore, we are not used to lack or any form of loneliness, abandonment or rejection. We are pure beings that start from square one. So every time, your mom ignores you, or your Dad accuses you of being greedy because he couldn't purchase something that you desired, it gives rise to complexities, triggers, and emotional trauma that you will have to deal with for the rest of your life. These emotions that you suppressed will be fixated in your subconscious mind and if any of you subscribe to Abraham Hick's teachings of the law of attraction, you will attract situations which will cause the exact same feelings. What you resist, you persist.

Let's present an example. I used to watch Gossip Girl two years ago. That show was my guilty pleasure. What intrigued me most about the show were the characters. One particular character that stood out was Blair Waldorf. And girls who watched this show can relate to my fascination towards her. What I found fascinating about her was the fact that she was so perfect and yet so imperfect all at the same time. I remember first seeing her and finding her to be absolutely gorgeous. She was popular, intelligent, hardworking, a romantic-at-heart, classy, a dedicated girlfriend saving herself to be a virgin for her boyfriend, rich, and downright gorgeous with the perfect face, perfect chestnut curls, and large doe-eyes. She also won the hearts of two men of royalty and almost every main character in Gossip Girl was absolutely crazy for her and even went as far as plotting to have her heart. Yet she was always chasing after something or the other. She always found herself being out-shined by her best friend. She always felt ways that were not in tune to reality. She acted like a bitter bitch, for lack of better words. She was envious of Sarena (let's admit it) and she always plotted to attain something or the other even if it meant hurting someone during the process.

Blair Waldorf (Queen B)

What was she running from? She was running from the possibility of feeling insignificant. Her mother was always working, and her father cheated on her mother with a male model and eventually left the family upon discovering that he was gay. This feeling of insignificance chased her throughout her life. It manifested in the relationship with her best friend and the males in her life. Through her lenses, she was always the insignificant one, the one overshadowed. This is why she produced bulimia and as for the mans she was in love with, she had to wait to have. I will refer to this as the Blair syndrome. No matter what you attain, you never feel fulfilled. Your demons are always telling you that you aren't good enough. You can be the most successful and beautiful woman in the world, and yet you feel worthless. Life feels like a joke, doesn't it?

So what do you do to help yourself? What you do is put yourself in situations where you feel uncomfortable. If you're a socially awkward person, go ahead, put yourself in a group. Yes, it can be traumatic but this is important. After doing so, speak. Feel those emotions. Wait for the moment when you can be by yourself. If you need to excuse yourself to go to the washroom, do so. Shut yourself in a washroom stall if you have to. Breathe in and out, note down what that feeling feels like. You may feel a negative emotion pulling at your chest. You may even have thoughts of suicide at the extreme. You may think that you want to run away as fast as you can. But keep in mind that you only want to run away from yourself. Ask yourself "when was the last time I felt this way?"

Then ask yourself "When was the first time I ever felt this way?" Now you may either receive images of a particular time in your childhood, or you may get nothing at all. But what you have to do is validate those feelings. If you don't get an image, that's absolutely fine. What you do is release those feelings. Tell it, "I'm here with you right now." Cry if you have to. The point is to release the emotions that were stored. Don't think you are weak for crying. Remember, nobody has to know.

If you remember a particular time when you felt the same exact feelings as a child. Picture the scenario taking place. So let's say your mom was high on drugs and when you wanted food, she ignored you and screamed at you for wanting that particular item. What you do is picture your current older self walking right into this situation. Hug the child, let it cry. Yell at the mother if you have to. Yell at the mother for being a bad mother and then either give the child a better mother figure or take them to an amusement park. Buy them cotton candy or ice cream. Love them and cherish them. Validate their feelings. Act accordingly to however they would have wanted things. Now you can rationalize and feel sorry for the mother. But keep in mind your mother is just as a wounded being as you are, going through the struggles of life and being hurt once in a while herself. The point is to set yourself free without thinking of anyone else in your visualization.

Let your inner-child taste the sweetness of this treat.

So all of you might be thinking, what does this do? What's the use? Well if you subscribe to Abraham's teachings of law of attraction, if you've watched the secret, and if buddhist concepts like nirvana appeal to you, then this process is important. What the 'law of attraction' community believe in is that reality is a mirror projection of your thoughts. So if your subconscious mind is filled with fear, feelings of inadequacy, and pain. Guess what your reality is going to look like? And if Blair Waldorf reminds you of yourself, guess what? You're ugly even though you're gorgeous, you're stupid even though you're smart, and you're unloved, even though 10 different guys are chasing you! The higher dimensions doesn't have a time and space reality as we do. The subconscious that sends signals into the universe to create your reality doesn't know the difference between now and then. So your past demons are still there. If you do this process and you're a firm believer of the law of attraction, then the vibrational value of that memory will change forever.

As for Buddhist concepts like nirvana simply means a state of mind that is free from negative mental states, peaceful, happy, and non-reactive. The only way you can be non-reactive is if you get to the root of the trigger itself. Don't get me wrong, there is absolutely nothing wrong with desire but most of us have desire in the first place because we're running from something. So if you can get to the root of your darkest fantasies, perhaps you'll be peaceful with not attaining that desire at all.

And if you don't believe in this 'bull crap,' well it's nice to see why you're socially awkward, why you're jealous, why you're unhappy, why you hate the people that you do, right? The point is to be in touch with your darkest feelings and validating it and setting it free. If your child wants some other child's toy and she can't have it, would you be harsh to her and say "how dare you crave something that's someone else's?" You will comfort your child. So treat yourself like that child. Love this child unconditionally. Would you rather be unhappy and rich or happy and poor? Would your mother love you any more if you had that pimple on your forehead? Know why you want what you want, why you hate the person you hate, why you attract the people you attract, and why you are drawn to the people you are drawn to! Get in touch with yourself.

I will add two videos regarding this very topic. Watch it, and improve your life. My inspiration comes from Teal Swan. I will make an article about her as a spiritual teacher later on but I feel like some of her teachings are very helpful and I hope it resonates with all of you.